It still burns

[maggies_lens]

What if i had gone down to the paddock and seen something was wrong, called a vet, would he be alive now? Is it my fault? Did I fail him?
Every day it burns.
I miss my autumn horse so much.
Every single day.

Comments

[howlin-wolf-66.livejournal.com]

You gave your absolute all! *hugs*

[re-vised.livejournal.com]

Everything that's happened in our lives is a "what if". We can't live in that constant state of questioning ourselves. It was just his time, and that's okay. It won't ever stop hurting...unfortunately.

[herecirm.livejournal.com]

Oh, love. :( Those what if's will tear you apart if you let them. You absolutely, categorically did not fail him, and I honestly don't believe that there was anything you could have done differently - it sounded like it was a very sudden passing, and there's no way to predict those. You gave him a wonderful life. I miss him too, even though I never met him - I loved your updates and your photos, and how he clearly meant the world to you.

Big hugs.

[phoenix-rose-up.livejournal.com]

Oh Maggie. Don't do that to yourself. As many have said it was sudden and you couldn't have done anything to change the outcome.

It is hard.

I know it hurts.

I wish I was much much closer to give you a big hug!

[wastedrock.livejournal.com]

You for sure didn't fail him. Even if you had gotten there it was his time unfortunately. I'm sorry my friend losing one is never easy <3

[peregrinate123.livejournal.com]

~hugs~

[seewildflowers.livejournal.com]

You did NOT fail him! I have these kinds of thoughts about Buster, but I have to turn my attention to something else because those things can just destroy you if you let them go on too long. I'm so sorry and I understand this pain so much. Buster is never far from my mind and it still hurts and I still miss him like crazy. Biggest hugs your way!! <3 <3